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Amy @ Write This Down
Bailey @ Being Bailey J
Ash @ A Step in the Right Direction
What an interesting few days it's been. I'm currently stuck in my own head right now - I told you the anxiety was setting in about school - and today is all about me working on getting out.
I haven't weighed myself today (yet), quite frankly I know what I'm going to see. Plateau. Or gain. I could see a loss at this point but I would still feel ill inside.
I'm a big believer in a holistic approach to health and that most things going on mentally find a way to manifest physically. By extension these mental inconsistencies manifest in my environment in ways like the cleanliness of my room and whether my hair stays in a top knot for three days or not (it did.)
I'll be honest. After my last trip of the summer and last time spending time with friends for awhile, things have changed. The realization that I'm leaving Nick, his family, and my family soon is very real. My excitement for school has utterly melted away and has been replaced by a lot of anxiety, fear, and a little depression. How am I coping right now? I'm retreating.
Why is that the toughest part of this journey comes right after significant success? I was doing SO well. Why is it so hard to continue to ride the waves right on down to my goal? There always has to be a setback or plateau.
I guess if it were easy, everyone would do it. But it's also what makes victory so sweet.
A lot of things don't make sense when I'm this stressed and anxious about the future like my propensity to push people away and isolate myself when I'm about to experience major change. I internalize or lash out. I did it with college, now I'm doing it with medical school. The thing is, a lot has changed in 5 years so there's no reason to keep repeating this destructive behavior.
So what's next? Well, I'm getting up early and going for a run because I'm not going to let myself be a miserable person for the next two weeks. I'm not going talk myself back into the old ways of doing things - using food for comfort, reverting back to an introvert, or skipping workouts - because the old ways sucked. They sucked up all my energy, my happiness, and my progress. Sure it's comfortable but it's not happening again.
I realize this post is a change from my usual upbeat & positive outlook but I said from the beginning that I was going to be open and honest about this journey.
I knew if I posted something about rainbows and happy-bright-things I would be "talking the talk" but not "walking the walk." I'm not going to do that. I'm going to whole-heartedly admit that I've failed this week. I've skipped workouts, I've eaten crap, and even QUIT in the middle of a run. Just quit and went to my car, drove home, and never looked back. On top of that, I've been pretty damn rude and dismissive to a few select people (that I know can take it) and it feels awful.
Turning over a new leaf starting NOW. I appreciate this time to vent and now I'm looking forward to a successful rest of the week. Unlike in the past, I have a whole community to draw inspiration and support from so for that, I thank you.
On a positive note, I have revamped my sponsorship options. I still have swaps available, but only for a limited time! Ash and I are offering 50% off all paid sponsorship ads for those who link up for Weigh In Wednesday. (Obviously it needs to be a relevant post. We will be checking!) MY promo code is: WIW50. Just check out the Sponsor tab and Passionfruit will do the rest!
Now let's get to linking up, shall we?
I haven't weighed myself today (yet), quite frankly I know what I'm going to see. Plateau. Or gain. I could see a loss at this point but I would still feel ill inside.
I'm a big believer in a holistic approach to health and that most things going on mentally find a way to manifest physically. By extension these mental inconsistencies manifest in my environment in ways like the cleanliness of my room and whether my hair stays in a top knot for three days or not (it did.)
I'll be honest. After my last trip of the summer and last time spending time with friends for awhile, things have changed. The realization that I'm leaving Nick, his family, and my family soon is very real. My excitement for school has utterly melted away and has been replaced by a lot of anxiety, fear, and a little depression. How am I coping right now? I'm retreating.
Why is that the toughest part of this journey comes right after significant success? I was doing SO well. Why is it so hard to continue to ride the waves right on down to my goal? There always has to be a setback or plateau.
I guess if it were easy, everyone would do it. But it's also what makes victory so sweet.
A lot of things don't make sense when I'm this stressed and anxious about the future like my propensity to push people away and isolate myself when I'm about to experience major change. I internalize or lash out. I did it with college, now I'm doing it with medical school. The thing is, a lot has changed in 5 years so there's no reason to keep repeating this destructive behavior.
So what's next? Well, I'm getting up early and going for a run because I'm not going to let myself be a miserable person for the next two weeks. I'm not going talk myself back into the old ways of doing things - using food for comfort, reverting back to an introvert, or skipping workouts - because the old ways sucked. They sucked up all my energy, my happiness, and my progress. Sure it's comfortable but it's not happening again.
I realize this post is a change from my usual upbeat & positive outlook but I said from the beginning that I was going to be open and honest about this journey.
I knew if I posted something about rainbows and happy-bright-things I would be "talking the talk" but not "walking the walk." I'm not going to do that. I'm going to whole-heartedly admit that I've failed this week. I've skipped workouts, I've eaten crap, and even QUIT in the middle of a run. Just quit and went to my car, drove home, and never looked back. On top of that, I've been pretty damn rude and dismissive to a few select people (that I know can take it) and it feels awful.
Turning over a new leaf starting NOW. I appreciate this time to vent and now I'm looking forward to a successful rest of the week. Unlike in the past, I have a whole community to draw inspiration and support from so for that, I thank you.
On a positive note, I have revamped my sponsorship options. I still have swaps available, but only for a limited time! Ash and I are offering 50% off all paid sponsorship ads for those who link up for Weigh In Wednesday. (Obviously it needs to be a relevant post. We will be checking!) MY promo code is: WIW50. Just check out the Sponsor tab and Passionfruit will do the rest!
Now let's get to linking up, shall we?
Weigh In Wednesday
Post about your current weight loss or fitness goals. Anything about your quest to get healthy!
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This is a blog-hop style link-up. Click around the different links to find new blogs and support others on their journey! Try to visit at least three other blogs - comments are always welcome!
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