Weigh In Wednesday: March 25

Wednesday, March 26, 2014

Pretty Strong Medicine

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Ash @ A Step in the Right Direction

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Gotta make this a quick and dirty post - lots of studying to do with three exams coming up Thursday, Friday, and Monday.  They just love to kill us all at once.  

Weight stayed the same this week due to the fact that I went home last weekend. It wasn't anything too crazy but every time I go home, I get out of my motivation mindset and let myself have treats.  Luckily the weather was gorgeous so I was able to get a run in on Friday but not much else. I need to learn to take my lifestyle on the road with me instead of abandoning it.

Height: 5'8"
SW: 236.2
Last week: 207.6
This week: 207.4
Loss: -0.2 (nada)
Total Loss: -28.8
BMI: 31.6

My city - I miss it!

A pretty bonfire downtown.

My snuggle buddy.

Everything is starting to pile up as the semester progresses - wedding planning, end of the semester, extracurriculars, obligations. I'm just trying to keep my head above water.

On a more positive note, I want to announce that my WIW co-host and I will also be co-hosting a Dietbet starting April 14 to give us that last push towards summer - weddings, bikinis, shorts, all the things! 

Hope you'll join us for the Dietbet!  It's $25 to join - if you reach your goal of losing 4% of your body weight in the four weeks, you split the pot with the other winners.  I've participated a few times now and you end up making back your money and then some which is a nice way to treat yourself for all the hard work!

Hope you all have a fantastic week! 

Weigh In Wednesday: March 19

Wednesday, March 19, 2014

Pretty Strong Medicine

Hello everybody! Welcome to Weigh-In Wednesday!
Please go check out my sweet co-host!

Ash @ A Step in the Right Direction

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This girl has finally got her groove back! Thank you sweet baby Jesus! The past few weeks have been just kinda blah - I was eating like a hormonal teenager and living the couch potato life.  Maybe it's the dawning of Spring weather or something just clicked again but I'm feelings pretty great.  

I have to be honest, I was pretty down in the dumps lately which happens to me on occasion. Anyone else experience this? I just have little cycles of not feeling like myself - they come and go, maybe they last a few days or maybe a few weeks but eventually I get over them. I hesitate to say "depression" but that's what it feels like sometimes. Luck for me, I'm out of the funk and feeling much, much better.

Weigh in time! 

Height: 5'8"
SW: 236.2
Last week: 208.5
This week: 207.6
Loss: -0.9
Total Loss: -28.6
BMI: 31.6

Small victories. I rebounded a bit from my water weight loss when I was sick so my loss is pretty small this week. 

In other news, long run last night. It was a 50 minute "fall back" run and my first club run in THREE weeks - exams, spring break, illness - all the excuses. So I was able to get 4.7 miles in which were slightly painful and not at all enjoyable. However, in order to catch up in my training I need to bust out 7-8 miles this weekend.  Wish me luck. I'm scared.

Remember my Turkey meatloaf(s)? I think I've perfected the recipe. Holy delicious - these are pure perfection! Paired them with some roasted squash, zucchini, and potatoes (plus topped with tomato sauce).

Now for something completely new!
Thanks to my dear friend, Marguerite, I found out about a FREE fitness movement called November Project! It started in Boston and now has expanded to 15 cities across the country including my dear home of Indianapolis! This morning (at 6:25 am) was my first time and I had a blast (well...I felt great afterwards. It was pretty hard!). Everyone is super nice and encouraging and people of all fitness levels are welcome!  

I will have more updates about NP soon! It's definitely something I'm going to incorporate in my week - the opportunity to meet new people with similar interests that ARE NOT medical students is so refreshing - "real" people? WHAAAA

 Killer burn followed by a much deserved breakfast! Lentil and bean "taco" with yummy 'matoes and the always pleasing scrambled eggies.  I'm happy and full 'til lunch!

Excuse me while I got foam roll my life away.  Hope you all are enjoying the first hints of spring! 

We Are Young - Weekend Wrapup

Monday, March 17, 2014

 Hello family! It's been awhile since I've had much weekend happenings to "wrap up!" To finish my spring break out strong, my bridesmaids (minus the very missed Marguerite) came up to Indianapolis for my Bachelorette Party! They quickly put together a party with only two weeks to plan everything because of my limited schedule and I think it turned out beautifully! 

What I love most about our group is that we can go without seeing each other for months but when we finally get all back together in the same place, it's like we were never apart. 

We started the afternoon with lots of snacks (mostly healthy - hummus and pita, veggies, chips, etc.) and some delicious punch, wine, and yes - even jello shots. My friends really outdid themselves for being the middle of the day.

We played a couple fun games including Fiancee Jeopardy. My friend Mary had asked Nick to answer a bunch of questions about his favorite things, family, etc.  Wrong answers meant consequences - if I got it wrong, I had to do something (like truth or dare, take a drink, etc.) and if I got it right, someone else had to do it.  It turned out to be SOOO fun!  I didn't do too bad either and they were tricky questions!

We went to dinner later on in Broadripple and then eventually made our way downtown to Howl at the Moon which is a dueling piano bar. SO. MUCH. FUN. I must go back! At some point in the night, my friends signed me up to be on stage to have them play "We Are Young" by Fun. aka our senior year of college anthem. I may have ended up singing into a microphone in front of hundreds of people. Surprisingly, I did not overindulge at all during the night - I mentioned in my last post how having "too much" fun was a common fixture of my college experience. I'm slowly learning that I can still have a blast with my friends and be more responsible and because of that realization, the night was awesome!  It doesn't hurt that anytime we all get together, the night is just plain hilarious.

After HATM, we made our way home - safe and sound. Brunch this morning and now my Spring Break has come to an end, sadly. The end of my first year of medical school is quickly approaching which means the wedding is closer, too! (and my mini!)

There are so many things to look forward to in the coming months - a lot of life changes and a lot of stress. Hoping to make it through the best that I can. 

One of my favorite presents from the party!  I love it.

Leftovers at my house - the amount of wine is ridiculous. I won't be drinking this anytime soon, I have a dress to fit into!

At Howl at the Moon - some man decided to rudely jump into our photo.

Seriously the luckiest bride in the world to have the best sisters, friends, and bridesmaids!

My Fitness Story: How Did I Get Here?

Thursday, March 13, 2014

I'm writing this blog in order to tell my fitness story for my 30 Day Challenge with Adie of Four Fit Sisters. It's long overdue.

I have never been skinny. Or thin. Or small. Or tiny. Or petite.  Whatever words you want to use...they’ve never described me.  Even at birth, I was a “big” baby.  At 9 lbs 7 oz and 23 1/4 inches long, I was born via C-section.  My family often reminds me that I was the second largest baby born that day in January. 

Growing up, I was always in the top percentile for height and weight.  I wasn’t grossly overweight or obese, but I always had “a little extra.” I think I fell somewhere in the middle when it came to athleticism and activity.  I tried all the sports available to girls my age - soccer, softball, basketball, karate, swimming, and volleyball; but my really loves were horseback riding and cheerleading/dance. That said, I never had a really aptitude for sports requiring much hand-eye coordination or skill - it didn't interest me. I was a pretty quiet, gentle kid who much preferred reading or playing games. I could entertain myself for hours making up stories about my dolls and beanie babies - very self-contained.

I don’t remember being bullied much, although there always seemed to be a few kids with something to mean to say about my weight. Most of the criticism came internally - those trips to the mall to try on clothes, getting fitted for my cheerleading uniforms, or dreading any activity involving a swimsuit.

I can’t exactly pin point when I became aware of my weight but I do remember being weighed during gym class in 4th grade.  That was the first and last time I remember seeing 100 lbs on the scale - I cried and cried that day when I came home from school. I probably had no concept of how much that was but I knew I was bigger than most of the other girls in my class.

8th grade - 5'4" 145ish

Around age 13 was when I started paying more attention to my weight and also when I developed a desire to change what I looked like.  Unfortunately this was when I started getting my weight loss information from very sketchy sources.  The whole concept of eating clean and finding enjoyable exercise activities completely alluded me.  I was enticed by images of bony, thin models and “thinspo,” - I wanted to be just them. I wanted to be skinny and I didn't care how.  My research showed me many ways to go about this - starve yourself, exercise excessively, purge - basically everything we know is horrible for you and your metabolism.

Summer between 8th and 9th grade (got my belly button pierced)

Even with all this pressure and misinformation, I never had a full blown eating disorder...I guess I like food too much, though I certainly developed a terrible relationship with food - The enemy. I yo-yoed throughout my teen years, losing and gaining weight through severely restriction my calories and then bingeing. I do know that since I was a young girl, there hasn't been a day in my life where my weight hasn't been on my mind.  

 10th grade summer - 5'7" ~150 (One of my "thin" years)
 10th grade school year ~155
 Senior Pictures - summer before 12th (please excuse the orange glow)

At the end of my senior year of high school, the prospect of starting college at Indiana University prompted me to join Weight Watchers with my mom and sign up for the local gym. During just a few months, I manage to lose about 20 pounds by counting points and slaving away on the elliptical - I felt great about the results but it still hadn't clicked for me. 

 Senior Prom 2008

That summer I went to Germany for three weeks - my daily workouts ended and my love of food was satiated by daily trips to the gelato cart and the bakery. I couldn't understand how all these European girls were so skinny yet they didn't head to the gym everyday and ate pretty much whatever they wanted!  I came back to the States about 7-8 lbs heavier than when I left.

 Germany Summer 2008

Off to college I went, determined to utilize the campus fitness center and make healthy choices - easier said than done. The food options at IU were unlimited - and the pizza.  ALL THE PIZZA.  I could eat whatever I wanted (and then go workout). Notice I haven't said anything about partying yet.  I wasn't much of a partier.  I never drank in high school - a result of hanging with all the smart, nerdy kids. At the beginning of second semester at IU, things changed.

In January, I joined a sorority. That really didn't change things much - I still wasn't interested in drinking, I just really wanted to find a place to belong.  In February, my dad passed away very suddenly.  (I'll save that story for another day).  That's when I started going out more.  And eating more. And working out less.  I started to get more anxious.  I struggled a lot emotionally.  I did the best I could to cope with that aspect of my life while still trying to be a normal college student. Thanks to maintaining a somewhat regular workout schedule,  I didn't gain all that much weight in my first two years of college - I even lost some during my sophomore year.

Fall 2009 Spring 2010

At the end of my junior year of college, I had reached the point where I couldn't cope with the anxiety on my own anymore.  I saw a psychiatrist who put me on some medication. Things started to get better emotionally but the summer I was on this medication, I gained 20 lbs which is a well-known side effect of the medication. I didn't like any of the side effects and I decided to discontinue the meds. I had a good support system in place at school and I had finally found my niche, things were looking up. 

 Junior Year Fall 2010

A few months later, I turned 21. That's when the real changes happened. I don't know if it was the stress of preparing for the MCAT and applying to med school, the increase in my course load, other life stresses, or some combination of it all but I really stopped paying attention to my health and my weight for the most part. I knew it was going up but I didn't have the tools to fix the problem while in such a toxic environment. I knew HOW to lose weight but I didn't know anything about clean eating or any of the things I know now about nutrition.  I wasn't willing to give up my $2 Tuesdays or $3 Thursdays or Wine Nights with girl friends (that often led to cheesy bread and ranch)- obviously drinking was a HUGE part of it. I wanted the college experience and I got it but it came with a huge price. (pun intended)

22nd birthday with FH

When I graduated from college, I knew I didn't look good because I didn't feel good. I felt bloated and slow. Fatigued. I didn't feel like working out and I didn't know where to start.  So I made a couple half-hearted attempts at dieting - honestly I don't remember much up until this photo below from spring 2013.  I decided something needed to change. I had hit rockbottom. 

I started doing more research online. I started putting all the things I had learned over the years to good use - clean eating (it matters WHAT you eat just as much as HOW MUCH), the need for accountability, finding physical activity I loved, stress relief, etc.  I became a big fan of several blogs and then I got a crazy idea - why not start one? Medical school was going to start soon and I wanted a way to connect with others and share the journey I was about to start.  This blog officially started May 2013.

I started small. I had a gym membership so I started actually going. I discovered in high school and college that I enjoyed group fitness classes so I went to Zumba and my aunt's Boot Camp classes. Eventually I decided that I wanted to start running, too.  I had started and stopped a few times over the years and I never really enjoyed it.  I decided in May 2013 that I wanted to sign up for my first 5k

After that, I started to actually...love...running.  I signed up and completed a few more 5Ks, a 10K, and now I'm training for my first half marathon. For me, it's all about finishing and pushing myself to be a little bit better each time - except in the cold. I hate the cold so my running has suffered a lot this winter. 

I started cutting out processed foods and drinks and focuses on upping my water intake (self-proclaimed Coke Zero addict). More recently, I've been trying to limit my dairy, gluten, and meat intake while focusing on a plant-based diet - which I break a lot but I'm getting better at.  I try to eat organic when I can and try to limit my exposure to added hormones and pesticides. Basically, I'm trying to do better which is all we can ever do.
For me there have been two obstacles in this whole journey - CONSISTENCY & BELIEF in myself. This journey to find fitness, lose the weight, and get healthier has been a lot slower than I anticipated but I know that means it will LAST.  Instead of looking for a quick fix or drastic change, I am making small changes in my daily life while going through a lot of stressful events all at once - moving to a new city, getting married, and going to medical school. 

A LOT has changed in the past few years and I know I'm not the same person I was as the insecure teenager or overindulgent college student - I'm learning that I'm capable of a lot more than I ever realized and that I have the power to make and maintain these changes. I know I have what it takes to reach my goals - even when I want to give up. 

So that's my long story, short - the highlights.  Thanks for sticking around and for the constant support from my blog friends and family. There's something so freeing about getting all of this out! 

May 2013 to Februrary 2014 
Slow and Steady Changes

Weigh In Wednesday: March 12

Wednesday, March 12, 2014

Pretty Strong Medicine

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Ash @ A Step in the Right Direction

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It's been a pretty crappy few days here.  After thinking I had avoided illness and proclaiming that I "never get sick" while my fiancee and friends were under the weather, a nasty stomach flu struck me at 5 am on Monday morning.  I can honestly say I haven't felt that bad since I was a kid - it was the terrible, awful.  Once the vomiting and other stuff ended, I pretty much didn't move all day and subsisted on Sprite and water.  Fever finally broke in the middle of the night and by Tuesday I was feeling a lot better - just dizzy and a bad headache (presumably from dehydration).  Today I'm still achy (pretty much everywhere) and lethargic but I'm feeling much, much better so I'm hoping I can make up for lost time and get stuff done today!  

Oh yeah, and I'm on Spring Break. whomp whomp. I didn't have any major plans for the week - just lots of doctor appointments - dentist, eye doc, etc. which I had to switch around. Wedding planning - I have my hair and makeup trial on Saturday which is when my friends will be coming for my Bachelorette Party! I was hoping to blog more but that seems to never workout.

The goodness in all this - weight loss!  Now I'm 90% sure this is due to losing water weight and not eating anything substantial for two days but a loss is a loss. 

Height: 5'8"
Last week: 210.4 (two weeks ago)
This week: 208.5
Loss: -1.9
Total Loss: -27.7
BMI: 31.7

I realized that I never came back and updated last week - it was a crazy week.  I was just coming off of a cardiology exam and preparing for a practical.  Pretty sure I was at 211.5.  

I don't really have much else to report so far because I haven't done much the past couple days. I am excited to be in the 200's - next stop is ONEderland!  

I'm really worried about my half marathon training though.  The past two weeks I haven't been sticking to my schedule and I've had a couple really bad runs where I just struggled.  I was hoping to get back up to speed this week but I'm thinking it's not a great idea to try to run while I'm still rehydrating and feeling dizzy/headachy.  I think today I'll do a low-intensity workout at the gym, maybe walk/run on treadmill and see how I tolerate it.  

I started compiling some wedding looks that I'm interested in! I would love your opinions!  I also decided that I'm going to keep my hair dark for the wedding. It's been a while since I had it blonde and I don't want to do anything drastic in such a short amount of time.

I have never had an up-do in my life so I don't really want to start at my wedding - I just don't think they would flatter my round face.  I love all of these looks!  Very flowy and laid-back but the braids and curls give structure.

I love bold makeup and I love a beautiful red lip! I'm just not sure I want it for the wedding day but I'm strongly leaning that way.  I also love the more simplified smokey eye and nude lip - I would want to kick it up a few notches though since it's an evening wedding.

Thoughts? How do you get back into healthy eating and working out after being sick?